The Great Gatsby...and...uh...Escapism? A Pensive Rant.
WARNING: This is
going to be one of those rants with no real purpose, that might not really be
going anywhere. The subject also has the potential to get melancholy and full
of pensive self-analysis, so a preemptive apology if I get a bit melodramatic
and lack the snarky humour that many of you love. Feel free to skip.
Every once
in a while, you come across a movie that changes your life. For me, there are
quite a few of them. I have no idea what kind of person I would have become had
I not seen The Nightmare Before Christmas,
Hook, and Legend as a child. Interview
with the Vampire and Edward
Scissorhands created bends in the road during adolescence, and you can
clearly see what happened when I came across The Dark Knight. The list goes on and on, obscure titles and mainstream
blockbusters, so many films have influenced me in so many ways. In May, when I was
in BG for the weekend, I finally saw The
Great Gatsby, and I felt something tweak in the fabric of my life’s path,
the same way I had when I saw any of the other films I mentioned. Watching it
made me feel a very specific kind of alive. I felt like my heart had dissolved
into warm light and spread through my veins.
I did not
go into Gatsby expecting this kind of
reaction. I’d been excited to see the movie for months, without really being
sure why. I read the book once, in junior high, and to be perfectly honest, all
pretentions aside, I don’t remember a damn thing about it, except that
13-year-old Dee found it soul-suckingly boring. I also have a meh/hate relationship with Baz
Luhrmann, having only kind of liked Romeo
and Juliet and truly despised Moulin Rouge.
I loathe how choppy and quick his split-second camera shots are, especially
since he takes so much time to weave lush visuals. The camera work just
destroys any chance of enjoyment. But once I saw the trailer for Gatsby, I was aching to see it. I’m a very
big DiCaprio fan, having never been disappointed in a performance of his since
he launched his more serious career. There’s something about his face and the
way he approaches his roles that I just genuinely like. The trailer also showcased Luhrmann’s ability to create a
rich and sensual world, which is my catnip.
Knowing The
Boyfriend would not be remotely interested in seeing this movie, I went to BG’s
super cheap theatre with a friend. For the first twenty minutes of the movie, I
was in simmering rage, because once again, Baz fucking Luhrmann seemed to have
given editing duties to an epileptic on acid. If I blinked, I missed the
introduction of a character or an establishing shot. The CG looked like a dvd
menu from early in the millennium, it was that
bad. But, thank sweet zombie Jesus, once Gatsby was introduced, the camera
slowed down, shots got longer, and I actually got to see the costumes, the
meticulous makeup, the details, and oh, my God, it was so beautiful. This movie
was so beautiful. With the exception
of Tobey Maguire, who has always been a flat actor to me, the performances were
phenomenal.
Gatsby is not a critical darling.
Critics felt that they sacrificed the story of the book for stunning visuals. I
get where they’re coming from, but from someone who pretty much hasn’t read the
book, I disagree. I was hooked into the storyline. I did not see the hit and
run coming, and I felt embittered and heartbroken at the end of the movie, just
like Nick Carraway. I despised what Daisy and Tom, but, and here’s my favourite
part, I understood the motivations of
every character. Absolutely nothing seemed forced to me. I saw Tom
as a formidable man who felt that he was past his prime, slipping in and out of
affairs as a way of reaffirming his manhood and virility. And I believed that
he loved Daisy through it all, that she wasn’t just a possession, though he
treated her that way. I despised but understood when he lied to the mechanic
about Gatsby having had the affair with Myrtle. I felt Daisy’s personal
magnetism and understood her desire to run away with Gatsby rather than
confront and end things with her husband, I felt her realization that she did
love Tom and Gatsby both, and understood the choice that she ultimately made,
however horrible I found it that she would fall back and let Tom and his money
clean up the mess. I did and didn’t hate her for it, because I could relate to
it. Same with Gatsby. I understood his need to “go back” into the past as if
the five years leading up to the story had never happened, rather than
accepting the past and moving forward as best he could. Hell, I even understood
why Myrtle ran into the street. Do you have any idea how rare it is for every
single character in a story to have motivations that feel utterly natural and
not forced into motion for the sake of the plot? I’ve rarely seen it. And I don’t
believe they sacrificed the story. Without Googling the theme of the book, I’m
going to make a guess. I walked away from the film thinking about how wild and
irresponsible New Yorkers of the roaring 20s seemed, so reckless and selfish and
at the same time so innocent, like spoiled children who have always been given
whatever they wanted. I felt embittered by how Gatsby had been betrayed and condemned
as a ‘bootlegging criminal’ by the hoard of hypocrites who openly drank his
booze and celebrated his mysterious reputation only months before. I felt rage
and sorrow toward Tom and Daisy, the very quintessence of those spoiled rich
20s children, who destroyed a life, knew they had, and fell back behind the
warm and secretive veil of their wealth, counting on their affluence to keep
their reputation safe, though I really couldn’t hate them for it. I pretty much
fell in love with Gatsby, a man who brought himself from rags to riches due to
an unfailing sense of hope and idealism, which also brought about his downfall
in the most poetically heartbreaking and perfect way.
And now,
Googling the book theme, I see it’s about the hypocrisy of the era,
condemnation of crooked politics, and the downside and tragedy of the American
Dream. Pretty much exactly what I took away from the film. In your face,
critics.
As you can
plainly see, I fell in love with this movie. It was simply beautiful, visually,
in writing, in performance, and in delivery. Even the music, blending modern
hip hop and soul with 20s jazz, giving the whole thing a simultaneously modern
and vintage gangster feel, was just perfect. The music itself pointed out the
cycle of the American dream to me, gangsters back then being bootleggers and pseud-celebrity
mobsters, today being drug dealers and hip hop artists with spotty pasts (and
presents)despite their wealth. My only critique, and I have to dig deep for it,
is that they overemphasized the symbolism that was probably very subtle in the
book; the green light and the eyes of Dr. T.J Eckelburg. I would have kept it a
little subtler, but I understand the urge to make it less so when transferring
mediums from book to film. And let’s be real here, subtlety is not in Luhrmann’s
vocabulary.
I think
this movie spoke so strongly to me largely because its strengths lend
themselves to escapism, and if there is one solitary running theme through my
entire being, it is escapism. I was born a daydreamer, played make believe
games long after my peers had gravitated toward sports and other recess
activities grounded in reality. I wrote stories during every single one of my
high school classes, utterly neglecting academics that bored me, and continued
to play make believe through theatre and home movies I would write and film
with friends. I create mental music videos to favourite songs and even entire
story arcs with playlists in the car. I write on scrap paper during idle
periods at the register. Dance, writing, reading, music, meditation, movies,
all of them are vehicles for escape for me. I even respond to traumatic moments
by honest to deity dissociation.
In American Psycho, Patrick Bateman has a haunting monologue, “There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman; some kind of
abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And
though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh
gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably
comparable... I simply am not there.”
With
Batemen, his sense of disconnect with this world is due to a malignant
sociopathy, the feeling of being detached from the whole of mankind. It is a
natural escapism, ingrained within him. I may be the opposite of a sociopath. I’ve
mentioned in this blog that I was a nightmare as a child, a raging mini demon
who lashed out and terrorized peers and caretakers. I think this was because even
then, I felt emotions very strongly.
And I still do, though the spectrum is less extreme than when I was a kid. And I
think this, paired with the fact that I cannot mentally handle idleness or the
dullness of the real world, contributed to the daydreaming escapist you see
before you. I disconnect from this world out of necessity, whether to protect
myself or keep myself entertained and mentally active. This is also, I think,
why I fell so hard for The Great Gatsby
and for other movies that are visually dramatic, like The Cell, The Crow, Pan’s Labyrinth, the highly stylized worlds
of Burton and Kubrick and Del Toro and Singh. I see the world in a highly
stylized way. When my depression attacks, colours are duller, faces around me
are less animated, I interpret people’s behaviour as more negative toward me
(She’s avoiding me. He’s never really liked me.) And when I’m happy, well, it’s
Luhrmann’s world. You need only look at my excessive romanticizing of Ination
for the strongest example of that. I swear to God, Ination looks to me like one
of the party scenes in Gatsby. It’s
like my ubermensch tendencies with romance, only for the entire world. I’m
drawn to stylized, bigger-and-brighter-and-more-beautiful or
darker-and-more-sinister-and-colder than life movies because that’s how I view
the world during points of high emotion, and that’s the world I escape to in so
many ways during so many points of my day-to-day life.
I didn’t
realize the extent of my escapism, and how unhealthy it can be, until I moved
down here to CBus, and started a full time job, paying bills, with very little
change or variety. It’s the first time I’ve lived in what college kids call “the
real world”, and I crept further and further into my fantasies, until I was
barely present. I started having the same focus issues I had in grade school, zoning
out without realizing it, in mid-conversation with somebody. A Psyclon Nine
song popping onto Pandora would emotionally hijack me. I wouldn’t even hear The
Boyfriend talking to me while I read on my Nook.
Escapism to
this level isn’t healthy, because soon the cracks between the worlds you’re
living in begin to appear, the gaps begin widening. I saw this most with dance.
While driving to and from work, I tend to listen to songs for which I’m coming
up with choreography, running ideas over and over in my head. But until
recently, I had no real time to physically work out these choreographies, and
definitely no time to perform them. The gap between my fantasy world, where I had
these great ideas and increasingly idealized my persona and performances, and
the real world, where I did technique drills once a week and had yet to perform
at all, was widening. Once I finally tried to physically pound out the
choreographies in my had, I found that I wasn’t fit enough for them, and it was
brutally made clear that I was not the performer that I had accidentally built
myself up to be in my own head.
The real
world, especially once you get into the daily grind of it, can be very dull,
and escapism is natural. Why do you think film is a multi-billion dollar
industry? But if you’re like me, you can lose yourself entirely in your own
world. That idea has a romantic ring to it, and that’s part of the draw, trust
me. But I’m slowly learning that what I should be doing is making the real
world more livable for myself. I need to be throwing myself into my
writing/dancing/various creative endeavors, rather than walking down that stone staircase and hiding in the confines of my mind. I already see the real world
in a stylized fashion. I should try to draw that out, express it in my art, do things instead of thinking about them so much. Maybe then
the real world wouldn’t be so unbearable.
…
………
What the
fuck did I just spend so much time ranting about?
Dude, I’m
fucking crazy.
So, in
conclusion…The Great Gatsby was
awesome.
End
transmission.
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